Well, I’ve started and stopped writing this post like a million times now.
I think you all know where I am going with this, as it’s been pretty clear to everyone I haven’t been around here much these days. When I started writing this blog, back in 2007, I had NO IDEA it would become what it has over the years. I didn’t start this to make money, to write a book, to go on trips, to make friends, to become a better cook…all of those things came over time, sure, but in the beginning I just wrote to share my life. I didn’t think anyone really cared what I had to say or what I was doing, but it turned out they did! And slowly, slowly, slowly this blog became a force — a driving force — in my life. Over time, it became my full time job and I adored every second of it. Some of you have been reading my blog since I started and I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for doing so. You guys have seen me through cross country moves, breakups, death, marriage, life…the list goes on. After my brother passed away, this blog was one of the only things that kept me going day after day. I owe you all a million thank yous for sticking with me through thick and thin.
But, if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that life is ever changing. We are always a work in progress, never completed. And I’m just going to be real honest with you all right now and say that I haven’t been passionate about writing this blog for a long time now. I don’t know what turned the switch, to be honest. I just know that you guys deserve more than me writing mediocre blog posts every three weeks. I would rather write nothing at all, than write something without passion in it. I’m sorry, but that’s the honest to goodness truth.
But you know what? For so long, I felt incredibly guilty about not wanting to write this blog anymore. I felt like I owed it to the world to continue, even though I wasn’t into it anymore. I felt guilty because I’ve been very successful as a blogger and walking away from all that just seemed silly. Like, why would you walk away from a perfectly great job you created for yourself years ago? A job that’s brought you personal friendships, financial freedom, trips around the world and the ability to work from home. Doesn’t everyone want that? I had to be literally off my rocker to throw that away. So, I shoved the thought under the rug and deemed it to be a stage I was going through, yada yada yada. Months went by.
But then I started waking up in the middle night literally having panic attacks over writing blog posts….and then I sat down with myself, asked myself some brutally honest questions and took to my journal. I prayed and listened and confronted some deep truths and fears about myself. And I realized that as much as I enjoyed writing this blog in my twenties, it was time to move on to something new.
Just when I came to all those earth shattering conclusions was right when a brand spankin’ new opportunity was put in my lap. For the first time in a long time, I felt FIRED UP. I’ve launched my new business as an online health and fitness coach and I am crazy in love with it. It feels amazing and life giving for me to do something new like this. A clean slate, a new start, a new job I’m creating for myself that’s rooted in helping other people reach their goals. I’ve been “Jenna, the food blogger” for so long now that it’s weird to think of myself as anything but that. But, YES. This. I could feel deep down in my bones that this was the right move for me right now and I just took that opportunity and ran with it.
Don’t worry — the archives and all the recipes and old posts will still be here for you. I would never be so mean as to deprive you of my mom’s famous spaghetti sauce recipe or anything. I mean, come on. Comments in the future will, however, be disabled.
I also warmly invite you guys to continue following my journey on Facebook and Instagram! And I would love to talk personally with any one of you if you have health or fitness goals you’d like some help with attaining. It’s been a huge blessing in my life to get to “know” all of you on here. Thank you for reading every day, for your messages, your emails, your comments. I can’t thank you enough for your support over the past eight years. I love you guys and hope we all can stay in touch!